{"id":186,"date":"2006-11-22T00:01:50","date_gmt":"2006-11-22T00:01:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akumaprime.com\/?p=186"},"modified":"2014-10-01T16:04:01","modified_gmt":"2014-10-01T16:04:01","slug":"how-the-decision-making-process","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/?p=186","title":{"rendered":"How? The decision making process"},"content":{"rendered":"

How does one kill oneself? What do I need to consider?<\/p>\n

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  1. First of all, this is\/was (tense is hard to deal with in a suicide letter. Pardon me if I switch it around now and again.) NOT a cry for help. I want to die, so the 1st priority is making sure that, whatever method I choose, it is effective.<\/li>\n
  2. Secondly, the less pain I feel, the better.<\/li>\n
  3. Third, the less mess I make, the better.<\/li>\n
  4. Fourth, the Easier it is to DO the better.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

    Ok, a gun is Very effective, but could be painful, Very messy, and I think moderately difficult.<\/p>\n

    Drowning is pretty certain, I think painful, not messy, but HARD TO DO… jeez asphyxiation is difficult. I tried in High school, and failed. As a side note, I was never willing to try and slit my wrists because if I failed, I would be marked a failure forever. The public stigma against suicide is strong.<\/p>\n

    Pills are FAR from certain (that’s why women keep failing to kill themselves successfully. They keep trying this method) Since it fails priority 1, it’s out.<\/p>\n

    Cover myself in blood and jump in a shark orgy. Ok I’m kidding, c’mon.<\/p>\n

    N20 – Nitrous Oxide poisoning: Quite effective, Very painless, No mess, pretty easy<\/p>\n

    That’s why I chose it \ud83d\ude00<\/p>\n

    Another side note: I read a Very interesting article about those high on thrill-seeking that are suicidal, as I am. The author hypothesized that the thrill seeking behavior is a way to train the brain and body to handle near death and highly dangerous experiences to prepare for that Final experience. After all, if you’ve already jumped out of a plane and off a mountain, just pulling that trigger becomes easier.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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