{"id":198,"date":"2006-11-28T00:01:17","date_gmt":"2006-11-28T00:01:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.akumaprime.com\/?p=198"},"modified":"2014-10-01T16:03:44","modified_gmt":"2014-10-01T16:03:44","slug":"previous-attempts-obviously-failures","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/?p=198","title":{"rendered":"Previous Attempts. Obviously Failures"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I think when I was 16 or 17, in a manic episode prior to a suicide attempt I shaved one eye brow off. I tried to explain it away to friends as a pre-halloween.. nonsense.. IDK.. something stupid and confusing enough to take their minds off the curiosity of the act itself.<\/p>\n<p>I tried asphyxiating myself in the shower with plastic bags, to no avail. I hadn&#8217;t quite conditioned myself for anything like that yet. Even so, the length of time it takes to asphyxiate is so long&#8230; the &#8220;life urge&#8221; so strong&#8230; I couldn&#8217;t do it now if I wanted to.<\/p>\n<p>I thought about slitting my wrists, but was worried about scars if I failed.<\/p>\n<p>The next day, I took a Bunch of pills I found in my house somewhere. They were old, and at this point I didn&#8217;t really know that the efficacy of suicide by pill was so low. I hopped on the bus to go visit a friend, and near my stop I got Very nauseous and tossed right when I got off the bus. It probably looked strange to any passersby.<\/p>\n<p>None of these worked, sadly. Better luck next time?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I think when I was 16 or 17, in a manic episode prior to a suicide attempt I shaved one eye brow off. I tried to explain it away to friends as a pre-halloween.. nonsense.. IDK.. something stupid and confusing enough to take their minds off the curiosity of the act itself. I tried asphyxiating [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-198","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life-is-like"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/198"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=198"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/198\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=198"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=198"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akumaprime.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=198"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}